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Still crying sometimes
I miss my mom lots this week, and haven't been doing that great without her.
I don't know why, but there's been lots of crying. I guess part of it is because her house is almost empty now, and that sort of cuts off the last connection to a previous life where I could go visit my mother. Mother's day is coming up, and that will be my first without her. The pressure of completing everything that needs to be completed is probably getting to me still.
And yesterday I picked up my cap and gown. That was something I would have immediately called her about, so I could hear her celebrate with me, and be proud of me. And walking back to my car with the package in my hand I just got really really sad and missed her so much. She died just one semester too soon. She wanted to see me graduate so badly. And she should be here. And part of me felt that she was right there with me, but ya know, it's just not the same, I cannot hear her voice.
I miss her lots, and the cryng isn't over yet, and I'm very sad and I want my mom.
Posted by Pischina at April 27, 2006 1:19 PM
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